Saturday, October 24, 2009

The Pity Party's Over!

I did a water fast because I needed some clarity. I've gotten it and I feel a lot better for it. I have a positive outlook about what's going on with me. I have fallen in love even more with my children. I'm becoming more of a conscious raw eater. I'm excited again about losing the weight, transforming my body on raw. I've been praying more and staying closer to my Lord, Jesus Christ (That's right! I said Jesus Christ with no shame! Amen-ah!)

I am ready to cut off my locks. I'm not sure how my pumpkin head is going to look bald but I'm excited for the change. Just thinking about cutting off my hair makes me feel liberated. I never realized how much femininity and hair is tied and even I felt affected by it. Not that I would feel less than a woman without hair, rather the idea of losing my hair with the possibility of no recourse. It's scary. I still have no idea what's going on and I'm not impressed with the doctors I've seen who seem reluctant to refer me to a dermatologist. I wish I could have more control over my health and stop depending on doctors with their prejudices...especially about black hair. It's frustrating. I'm going to look at other alternatives, but I'm still going to cut my hair. Maybe I'll look good rocking a 'fro.

6 comments:

Debra said...

Keep leaning on Him, He will show you the way!
I am sorry you are going through this. I said a quick prayer for you!
Debra @ Vegan Family Style

Debra said...

Hope you are feeling better!

RawCaribeña said...

Thanks, Debra. I must always lean on Christ!

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RawCaribeña said...

Thanks, for the support. I appreciate it.

badash said...

Cutting your locks!!! wow. Very liberating. Takes some courage to do that. I'm sure it will be a very cool change.... a new start, in a way.

Good luck girl!!

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