Thursday, October 22, 2009

Struggling

I'm going through a challenging period right now. I'm not at my best. I feel extremely awful and I feel I can't juggle all my activities at once. It's hard. I'm worried because I'm losing my hair and I don't know what the root of the problem is. I went to the doctor and they took blood tests. The tests came out positive. In other words, I was not lacking in vitamins nor do I have a thyroid problem. What is it, then! The stress has made me eat more cooked food than ever and I've gained more weight. I'm angry at myself and I'm scared. I usually don't care about long hair, short hair but the fact that I'm losing hair really scares me. I sometimes burst into fits of tears. I may just have to cut my locks, shave my hair.

I think I'll go on a fast to detox my body. Words can't describe how terrible I feel.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

it's Amanda, Tara's sister, i was feeling demotivated AGAIN so I decided to go online and find a black mom blogger that wasn't from an ultra american perspective and i was getting fed up then i remembered YOU and your beautiful babies so i came to ur page for inspiration and i feel better having discovered u again but i feel bad cuz ur not feeling so hot right now so i will pray for u, and pray for u some more and try to contact u soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RawCaribeña said...

Hi Amanda,

It's so good to hear from you. I hope my most recent blog hasn't discouraged you. Things are looking up. Thanks for checking in.